All my life, I’ve been searching for something.
Something never came, never led to nothing.
Nothing satisfies but I’m getting close, closer to the prize at the end of the rope.
That’s when I found her. She wasn’t the nebulous truth I’d been searching for, she was real and she became my world. I put aside the quest I’d never been able to explain and entered a new life with her. I’d found something real and I wasn’t letting go.
All night long, I dream of the day. When it comes around, then it’s taken away.
Until the accident. Highlands back road, middle of the night, all blind summits and sharp corners on thin country tracks. We were looking at wedding venues that weekend and we were on our way back to the hotel. I still don’t know what hit us or where it came from – there wasn’t anything there when I woke up again. But somehow I survived and she was… I couldn’t let it happen, wouldn’t let it happen, and something broke that night. I found what I’d been searching for, the nebulous truth, and it didn’t help. I made a working that night by instinct, desperately trying to bring her back, to make her whole. All I succeeded in doing was binding her soul here, connected to my own.
Leaves me with the feeling that I feel the most, feel I come to life when I see your ghost.
Ever since that night all I’ve done, all I’ve cared about was finding a way to restore her to life. No matter what it takes, no matter what secrets I must learn, I will find a way.
And I’m done, done, onto the next one.
Done, I’m done and I’m onto the next…